When push comes to shove you taste what your made of

Life for me over the last couple of months has been crazy and some of you know.
A lot of fights have started around my house. But at the end of the day they are still your family. I have finally found the one guy I want to be with. I love him so much he is so amazing and knows something is wrong before I even say anything. I miss him so much he does not live here yet. I cant wait till March Baby. And my best friends got my back like I have got hers. We have made it through so much over the last couple of years. And have a life time of ups and downs to go. But thanks girl. So I have gotten hurt a lot over the last month. I dis located my tumb. I fell and hurt my good knee my bad knee is still messed up. And I work to much again. 70+ a week. I did not start college. I will soon I have to I have a lot going for me and cant wait to see what is ahead. I finally stood my ground. Like the Rascal Flatts song goes "When push comes to shove you taste what your made of you might been till you break because thats all you can take on your knee you look up decide you've had enough you get mad you get strong wipe your brow sake it off Then you STAND.

Gosh

What is with everything. I guess just going through another rough patch you know. I met this really great guy the other night and we were talking and we were gonna start dating. But I tould him no. No really gosh I have not been that happy in a long time. But he was not the guy for me. Right now my family is my everything and I AM STILL YOUNG. All me friends are talking about moving out and all that but I cant right now I have to much here. Well I am starting college in a couple of weeks and with both jobs its gonna be go go go non stop. AGAIN....... I got to go out with Kara all weekend that was really nice I miss that. Me and my sister got in a really big fight and have really not talked sense then. You know I refer to music alot. One of my favorite bands Mayday Parade has this song called Miserable at best. And one line says " The hardest part of living is just taking breathes to stay" Gosh that is so true because we tend to give up to early and sometimes its just so hard just going on after you feel like you have been kicked down so many times. And you can never get up. Another one is by OneRepublic its called Stop and Stare. And it says "Yeah I know that everyone gets scared but Ive become where I CANT". This is just how I feel about everything right now.

Out of town and finding myself

Hey Guys I am in Virginia visiting some friends. Taking a break from my crazy life. I am getting to sleep in not work thats nice, swim, my favorite sit down and read a book I am loving that. But most of all I am finding me. I know that might sound crazy you might ask how are you finding you well I have fallen off my road. With God my faith started running low and I did not like that feeling. I was getting in to a lot of fights with my family and just being mad all the time. I got to the point that I did not like that side of me. I was drinking over a problem and thats not good I had to get out of all that mess. As some people say it TAKING A STEP BACK. Well so far I m not doing to bad on this road so far. My faith is really good started reading this book about footprints in the sand and it tell you line by line what it means and it is helping me realize God is with us no matter what. I lost that feeling. But I guess you have to hit rock bottom before you can come back up right? Well I have not done this all alone I have had a really great susport team my best friend in the whole world never left my side and was telling me when I just needed to stop. And some great people from work both jobs Lora thanks you really kept me going everytime I felt like giving up you were there. Thank You so much. And Tommy I know your always there and you just listen. Shawna you are awesome you have become a great friend to me. Thanks. Jas and Lori thanks for opening up your home to me and just listening to everything alot of people would not let an 18 year old fly across country to stay with them. You guys are great. Ms. Hunt and Kelley you guys are always there and I know that. Elisabeth,Tiffany, and Brandy my sisters what ever is wrong you guys keep my head up amazing I could not have asked for a better set of friends. And my FAMILY and that is you to brit. Thanks you guys did not know what was going on just that I needed a break and you let me have that. I LOVE YOU AL SO MUCH. I have came to find that I cant do everything but that I can try. LOL You can only work so much. And with me turning 18 and already feeling so grown up I needed to look at my life and I did. Again thank you to every one .

LOVE ALWAYS Donna LEA

Music

Wow gosh everything has been so hard but I know it gets worse before it gets better. Most of you know I love music and use a lot of lyrics to get through the day. Well one song that I really love Is "Life aint always Beautiful by Gary Allen" . And one line says "No,life aint always beautifulTears will fall sometimes Life aint always beautiful But it's a beautiful ride" No one can argue with that because no matter had bad things get you can always make it through and say I made it through it stronger than when I went in. And I have had to do a lot of me searching this last month its really hard going through something and not being able to talk about it with your family. But God never gives us something we cant handle. And another great some that has helped me is the song by Rascal Flatts called Everyday. And it reminds me so much of my best friend that I know will never leave my side and it says "You could've bowed out gracefully But you didn'tYou knew enough to knowTo leave well enough alone but you would'nt". "Everyday you save my life". The whole song talks about that one person and how no matter how bad things get their there. They never back down and always know when something is wrong its amazing and a great song. We all need some one like that to make it through life it you did not have that some one Were would you be? I know were Id be. Pretty broken up beaten down I would have hit rock bottom and stayed there. So if you ever need something to make it through the day just think of a song like the one for me and my best friend Kara the song by Taylor Swift " Im only me when Im with you"

Friends

Here are some of those great people in your life that will Never let you Walk alone. I have found out in the passed couple of months witch of my friends are standing there when I fall. In this picture above we had a great time I found out that day if you fall (no really) fall on your butt you can bet your BEST FRIEND is sitting right next to you on theres to. I have grown so much over this last year. when someone tells you its time for you to grow up and get your own friends learn to stand on your two feet you do. But they made the mistake they were the ones that needed to lean on you. Well "when life started throwing you fast balls you learn how to hit them as she learned how to RUN"

What Happened

Ok what happened to this?
I dont know anymore. Life has been so crazy this year. My family forgot how to act like a family. When will it be enough. When will someone beside me STAND UP and say IM DONE!!! How much can one person really take in this life?