Just a little poem by me

How do you manage to piss off all the people you care about in one day , one hour , or even thirty minutes?

Just one word , one look , one eye roll, says it all.
No smiles not talking.
Just because you feel mad , sad, or angry you dont need to take it out on everyone else.
Just because you dont want to see the truth.

What if you are tired? Tired of people being around.
You just want to be alone.
But people are always going to be there.
No matter where you go they are always there.

So before you go to take another drink, or light up that cigarette.
STOP THINK!
Is this what im gonna do everytime I get mad, or upset.
Im still hurting!
Is this really how I want to live my life.
Drink to drink..
Just stop scream, hit something.
Because Scars heal heart take time.
A LONG TIME.


By Donna Lea

So here I am

So I have made it half way through this. It is so hard but I have an awesome group of friends to help me through this. I have been dealing with depression for a couple of months now. Its not easy. trying to keep my job and fighting this. Some times I wake up and I dont even want to go to work but I have to fight it and go. I have made a really good friend at school and I dont know what I would have done with out her this year. I probably wouldnt have made it. And I cant tell her enough how much she saved my life this year. Well I will keep you posted.


Love ya Donna lea

Well well well

Well Well Well , I dont really know lol. So this last couple of weeks have been so crazy . I have been going through something and I m having to fight like hell to get out of it. It by far is one of the hardest thing I have been through it just takes so much out of you . It is crazy well I just wanted to let everyone know Im ok Ill right more later.

What a trip

Hey guys wow I had so much fun In Boston it was so great to just get away. I got to go see where my favorite Baseball team played and that was awesome and taking picture and letting my dad see was great to because it his favorite team to and he loved it. It was nice just to relax well I got some sad news on Friday. My Pastor and a guy I have known most of my life passed away and it was so hard because he always took care of us and was an amazing man helped anyone no matter what. he will be missed so much . I love you Mr. B
so Im gonna just end right there and we need to keep that family in prayer.

I miss you

Well I m not going to be on tomorrow but to let everyone know its gonna be a rough day for me. My Best Friend that passed away in 04 its her Birthday tomorrow its rough every year for me. I m gonna need everyone tomorrow. she would be 20 so its really hard just sitting here typing this. But the song of the day for tomorrow is "I hope you Dance by Leann Walmack Heres for you Kelsey I miss you. I hope you never lose your sense of wonder can you feel the heat but always keep that hunger may you never take one single breath for granted God for bid ill never leave you empty handed. I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean when ever one door closes. I ll hold one more open promise me that you'll give Faith a Fighting Chance and when you get the choice to sit it out or Dance.........
I hope you dance, I hope you Dance" .
I love you and miss you so much.


In Loving Memory of Kelsey Leann Clary.

What A Day

So it is Friday the 13th yay. Well we were brought up as it is a good day in my family. But today has been really rough. I have been going through alot and I dont know what it is so its kinda scary. I have been sick and I dont know whats wrong with me. This is how my day started off I woke up at 7am and I was really dizzy so I had to wait till it passed before I could go to work well I get to work and it has just been crazy. But I know everyone is ready for spring break so I understand but still I only have to make it through one more job and than I m off for the next 9 days I cant wait. Because I m just so stressed out I dont know if that is maybe making me sick? I dont know but I dont like it. So here we go my song for today is by Jo Dee Messina Its called "My Give a Damn's Busted- I really want to care I want to feel something let me dig a little deeper, No sorry nothing my give a damns busted" This is how we feel some times and This is how my day is. Another Great one to help me get through the day is by Jamie Oneal and its called "God dont make mistakes - It was one of those days were she couldn't find a single ray of sunshine and there wasn't even a cloud up in the sky." Dont you just feel like that I can tell you I feel like that a lot but than I remember That God does not give us anything we cant handle. And sometimes your just like why this why now well I learn you never question God because everything happened s for a reason you might not see it at the time but some where down the road it will come along and you will go. I get it now. God is amazing and I m having to stop and look around and realize that he is always here no matter what. Now that I m on this I have another song by George strait called " I saw God today - Ive been to church Ive read the book I know he's hear but I dont look near as often as I should yeah I know I should his fingerprints are every where I'd just slow down to stop and stare open my eyes and man I swear I saw God today" So leaving on that note lets have a great week.

Well?

Wow what a year and we are only three months into it.
So I finally got in to my new place. I got my car working again yay.
Broke up with the guy I was gonna marry . Working to long and it sucks.
Its just been crazy already. Well my best friend is having a baby girl in May so Im really looking forward to that cant wait. I m leaving for Boston on the 16 and coming back on the 21 I need a nice break to go find out what I m doing and were I m going again like I did in the summer because things are great dont get me wrong I just have been being stupid and messing up and that not good. And not me at all I mean I mess up but not like what I have been doing. So this is now time for me to turn things around and get back on the path I need to be on. I need to see what I really want to do in my life and start doing it and stop doing thing that might change that. I need my friend now more than ever. And I have great friend that always stand beside me no matter what I do they dont judge me they help me through it. What more could I ask for so this is a new start from here on out. You have to take care of the past before you can move on and I m learning that. I guess something take longer to heal and I know that because I m still trying to heal from 2004 its hard. But I m glad my friends understand and work with me on it . So to everyone thank you so so so so so so much.